One of the hardest moments in life is deciding if you

should try harder, or just move on..

(edit) Eh, i forgot to say that Yintong couldnt use the com last night so he woke up early this morning to help me download Dj Max into my psp. HAHA. Heres a big THANK YOU ^^.(/edit)

(EDIT AGAIN) OMFG SO FUCKING ANNOYING PLS HAO XIN MEI HAO BAO THINK VERY FUNNY IS IT PEOPLE DO TO YOU, YOU LIKE ANOT BLOODY HELL. CLARISSA I NEED YOU TO LISTEN TO ME COMPLAIN TMR! I NEED THE LISTENING EARS OF MY FOUR BIBMOS AHHHH SO FREAKING UGHHAHAUYIUSH~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~(/EIDT)

Hiiii. Haha havent been blogging lately cause i still have no internet. ):

Anyway, the past few days have been miserable cause I CANNOT GET TO SEE HIM -__- Thank god theres a celebration tmr so at least i can get to see _ properly providing he comes which i hope he does.

Lots of teacher's day surprises today. We made our physics teacher (Rusell Woo) so touched until he cried. Haha cause today's his last lesson with us before he goes back to NIE. So after recess i happened to go up to class by the the 3/8 and 3/7 classes so i had to walk past the girls toilet to get back to class then i saw my whole class gathered there. Cause Mr Woo had this dream where all of us were not in class for his lesson so i guess they were planning to make his dream come true -__-

Anyway im not sure how he found us there, but we all popped the party popper thingys and sang a teachers day song to him. Heheh. We headed back to class and took a bunch of photos. Half the lesson was gone but quite fun lah.

Next surprise was during Poa. The plan was, insiyrah had to pretend to be sick and ask ms goh to go the toilet with rebecca accompanying her. Then Rebe had to burst in halfway and say insiyrah fainted or whatever and ask ms goh to go to the toilet cause insiyrah's too heavy for her (wtf haha). Then we'll bring out the cake. But the plan kinda backfired cause ms goh couldnt leave the class. So she (ms goh) asked sera to go check and insiyrah.

But sera came rushing back and said insiyrah really did faint or smth. So ms goh eventually went out of the class and we started preparing the stuff. But instead of going to the toilet like we expected, she talked to dunno who (some teacher) and that teacher went to report to the vice principle (-.-)

So half way through the 'party' ms goh had to go out and talk to the VP. We were so scared she would come in so we hurried and cleaned up the whole mess. When ms goh came back in, the cake was gone, and all the rubbish was cleared. And she;s like, Wah so fast ahhahahaha.

Anyway, Vp took insiyrah downstairs to send her home. We were like omg, shes not even sick leh. How to explain to vp ? Haha, but on the way down insiyrah decided to tell the VP what we were actaully doing. I though she'll be like damn angry, but her reaction was like.. You all ahhh

-.-

Overall it was a fun day. Im looking forward to tmr. Hopefully _ comes plsplsplspls.

Mm kay bye.

OH MY EFFING GODDDDDDDDXXXX HE WALKED PAST MY CLASS!

(But he probably just wanted to go back to class to get his textbook or something -.-)

Whatever. For now I'll just bluff myself into thinking he likes me (back). I'll face the truth another day ^^

Theres something about him that you cant put into words,

And even though you're not with him,

You just dont wanna let him go.

( idk why my font's so small. Will edit when i have the time.)

Hiiii. My aunt's out so i can use the com awhile. Dont wanna talk about friday cuz i barely got to see him-__-

Anyway, went to school on saturday and i arrived the same time as _. Hahaha omg but he sat so far away ): ah whutever. Left for whitesands with cheong at about 11 and spent a longggggg time at the library. We acutally planned on taking a few of the seventeen magazines so others can have a chance to borrow but we ended up taking the whole stack hahahaha.

Went home and watched step up 2 and got ready to meet Cheong,Mls,and Elyse to go to siu's house for our proj. And Elyse... i dont know what to say. We told her to meet us outside Mac but she waited for us outside B&J's -____- A whole lot of time wasted. Hahaha. We didnt know how to go Siu's house, so we just took bus 3. Turned out to be the wromg bus. hahahaha all my fault sooo sorry ^^

We ended up sloshing through the rain and screaming and laughing alot. Esp this Cheong -____- And when we entered Siu's house both her dogs can rushing to meet us.... and Cheong started screaming like crazy -___- Hahaha we didnt really do much. Okay so Siu's 9 or 10 year old bro was in the room with us. We were sitting on the chairs talking when one of the dogs dashed in. And no surprise, we all started screaming freaking loudly and the brother ran out of the room ! hhaahhaahahahaha omg so funny pls.

Left at about 8.30 with Elyse. Hahahaha but we still havent finished.

Mm kay. I have to go to church now. And math tuition after. -_____-

k bye.

Its amazing how much pain the human heart can take.

Im having lesson in the IT lab now. And because of _, i made Cheong fall out with her kelmond (SO SORRY) during lunch though personally i think he's damn annoying. (Kelmond i hope you see this hahaha)

Merlissa is next to me. She's damn high now -_- So annoying when im feeling like this -____-

This sucks. I dont know if you're worth it dlkjvfvjlasvljsdvjksjv245.3234 I hope it rains from 1.35pm - 2.15pm every wednesday and thursday. So _ cant play soccer. So mean.. but whatever lah hahaha

Forget the risk and take the next fall.
If it's meant to be then it's worth it all.

Hello people, Clarissa here. ^^ Had a fun time with alyssa bitch today. (An all girls outing, you could say) Um cuz her intenet aint working, that's why I'm blogging for her right now. She's feeling very happy today cuz ahem, medium was looking at her during recess. You could say it was the happiest moment of her life. Though she didn't get to see him after school, I guess she's contented already, right? (:

Anyway, after school we went to century to get my tragus ring, then off to bugis to collect our straightener and curler. And finally, to ikea to get my stuffs. Had lunch after that and I swear we were damn hungry please. Both of us got two hot dog bread each and a drink.

Overall, today was fun and tiring.

I wished that today's recess didn't end cuz at least I'll be able to see the smile on my bestfriend's face.

I'd cheat destiny just to be near you..

Clarissa Cheong is a nice bimbo. Nice, because she wrote this to me in her blog:

i wish he would spare my bestfriend the misery of getting her hopes high and making her disappointed when nothing happens.

Aw, so nice! Hahaha i luv yew! Anddddd a complete bimbo cause.......

C: Eh, wanna be a GV member ?

A: Huh, why?

C: Dunno. Cause the card so cute. Its a little popcorn thingy.

A: -_______-"

Haaaaaaaha. Okay im going out with her and a few others after school tomorrow. Cant wait ^^ And today we had the option to sign up for dunno what course briefing thing in Singapore Poly. Cheong said to take option A and B, but i took A and H (?) i think. Eh my future leh must make right choices. hahahaha. But i wanna go Temasek Poly.

Cheong, lets get into the same course (A) ^^ K but i hope i can make it to sec 4 ! If i retain it'll be so embarassing pls. Plus who am i going to hang out with when my friends graduate? I willlll work hard i will i willllll plus theres a living reminder in my class anyway. (oooops so mean but true leh hahaha.)

Anyway, check out this video! I got it from joan's blog. A coral production hahaha. Delton looks so innocent inside! Hahah, and kenneth a paikia? So funny! The song in the video's quite nice though. If anyone knows the tittle and artist please leave a tag ^^

OKAY BYE. I WANT TOMORROW TO FASTER COME.

This situation's driving me crazy,

and i really wanna be your lady~

But obviously, he's out of my leauge,

Im wasting my time cause he'll never be mine,

and i know that i never will be good enough for him-

No, never will be good enough for him~

$1.20 ! Hahaha I finally hit one dollar! Keep clicking on the nuffnang ad abv please please please thankew ^^

Hi. Today was the bestest morning in my entire life ^^ Anddddd also the first time i wished chem lesson would never ever everrrrr end ^^

Anyway, me and cheong finally got our hoodies we ordered online. This morning my mum was like, " Eh, Alyssa there's a package for you." Then i opened it up and i saw my hoodies and i was sooo happy ^^ cause i waited like 3 weeks for it to arrive.

Mhmm as i was saying, after chem cheong, me and jasper went to whitesands with Mr Sufiyan in his car. Went to Mac and met up with all the 3/9-ers..They were having A math with Mr Fong. ( I only knew today that kelmond calls him Fongie hahaha.) We occupied like 4 tables -___- and wensen couldnt come out cause of his size (?) and Mr Suf was like suaning him hahaha.

Ahhhhhhh i wish this morning would never end. Cheong and Siu said he looked over... I dont know lah. If it didnt mean anything then he wouldnt bother to look over right ? Right? I dont know. But maybe im just thinking too much. Monday then see lah hor. But he looks so cute when he's doing work hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Im meeting The Cousin later at Bugis at 3:15. Then to Newton for cell. Ugh, i dont feel like going. I feel like going back to my school canteen ahahahahaha. Okay ta.

But now, even i can tell that i confused my feelings with the truth..

I thought you felt it too..When there was me...and you.

I got my lappie back. But my internet refuses to connect. So here i am on my aunt's com. Agaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiin. Im so sick of school already. But i still drag myself to school because...but i feel like im wasting my time. Ah whatever.

Anyway, cheong decided to come to school today thank god. At least i have someone to accompany my during lunch and after school. We both took turns being high today. And we completely didnt pay attention during chem -___- Oh what else. I helped her do her math homework today. Im so nice ^^ Bitched alot during social studies...and weird as it might seem, i cant wait to get started on our project O_o

Okay im just typing out whatever comes to my head. Uhmmm ohya, i exchanged mp3s with siu today. I liked the songs in her mp3 so we traded ^^ Anddd alot of people are starting to wear the "ballet" school shoe -___- i dont likeeeeee i wanna change school shoes alr. Butttttt, i cant find any nicer ones to chnage to. Speaking of change, i like izzah's bag. I wanna get one something like that ^^ uhhhhhhhhh i gave a note to my secret pal today hope she received it ^^

The person who's my secret pal is gonna die the day we reveal who our pals are. I still havent gotten anything from him/her ): Oh cheong! if you read this, i alr figured out how to play the enya song on the piano ^^ ( remember the song being played during the SS lesson ? The 911 bombing video.) I'll play for you during the next pe lesson ! Or if we can get our turn on the piano -____-

K life sucks byeee ^^v

If it didnt hurt so bad, they wouldn't call it a crush.

Hi. My lappie still hasnt returned so im sneaking online on my aunt's com yet again. My heart is pumping like crazy cause she can be back anytime jeez im fucking nervous.

Anyway, clarissa's planning to pon school tomorrow so i have no one to lunch with. which means i cannot see _ during lunch. And after school. Walao Clarissa Cheong ! See laaaah. ): Speaking of Clarissa, we had this conversation today.

A: Wah, my leg so pain ): Like I just finish running 2.4 that kind of pain.

C: Know why? Cause you've been running through someone's mind.

A: -_- I wish.

Neh cause Andy and Danny are kind of sort of competing to see who has more pickup lines -__-. Shit she's unlocking the door alr k byebye byebye time to flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ~

sogivemeacluecauseimplanningtomakeamove..

Love is a wonderful thing until it happens to your only child.

Quick post. My mum took my lappie away, so i have to sneak online with my aunt's com. Again. Anyway, the theme for sec 3's english for this week(?) is Love.

How apt.

I think im gonna put alot of effort in this one. Haha, Clarissa says we can write from real life experiences -__- Not that i have much to write about. And this morning during assembly, i looked to the front and saw the countdown thing to O levels. 6 more days. Nearly gave me a heart attack. Until i realised last Friday it was still 60+. So i think they just havent put up the secong number only. Cheh, scare me only -___-

Okay, my tongue is swelling like a balloon right now. (Cheong : hehehe only you know leh, be honoured ^^) Andddddd, i think im gonna go finish reading Breaking Dawn. Ta.

Life sucks, and then you die.

I watched the national day parade on on saturday (on tv). Every year the same thing. My mum said in orchard or wherever there was this big screen showing the ndp but no one stopped even for a while to watch. But the spirits there were so high, it made me proud to be singaporean hahahaha. And when the credits rolled after the parade, i saw coral secondary listed in the combined school choir thing! hahahaha so cool so cool ^^

Anyway, I have a throat infection and a grand total of 6 ulcers. 2 of them are on my tongue, one on top and one at the bottom. It hurts to talk and eat. Im lisping and drooling like an idiot. hahahaha keh im going out with my cousin soon. Updates laytah.

As long as one heart still holds on,
then hope is never really gone.

(edit) Oooops, i only just realised its 9th August today. Yay, Happy 43rd Birthday Singapore! Heh heh cause i got carried away with the olympics thing. But singapore has its birthday every year. Olympics happens only every 4 years leh hahaha. (/edit)

( I did this post on my livejournal yesterday, so im just copy-and-pasting it today.)
(and yes, my lj (not lanjiao ah) is private. ^^)

Mhmm, Anyway, i'm kinda watching the Olympics opening ceremony thingy. (My lappie is just next to the TV) It started and 8:08 pm. -___- so typical. Not as grand as i expected, too traditional for my taste. Alot of taichi and little children singing and whatever. I think Greece did a better job 4 years ago. They had this huge ass paper boat on the water with a lil boy on it waving the Greece flag. So cute pls.

Uhmm, Im looking at all the athletes from all over the world walk into the stadium and honestly, after awhile it gets kinda boring. I only look at the tv when America,Canada,Germany,Brazil and Singapore (Li JiaWei was the flag bearer.) walked in. Its been 40+ minutes already but countries are still walking in. Jeez. We're at Zambia now. I wonder how many more countries are left. Greece was the first country to walk in and I bet they're tired of standing and waiting for all the countries to walk in.



So cool. I wish i was an athelete too. hahaha.

Oh.The music just changed.

ZOMG last country ! China with 639 participants. US had more than china. Im glad Singapore had a sizable number, if not it'll be so embarassing pls. Cause only people who qualify can comptete. and there was this country i've never heard of with only two participants -__- Oh, and when US walked in, i saw President George Bush and the First lady on TV. Hehe, i've never seen him on tv before what hahaha, i've only seen his pic on the net leh.

Anyway cool the whole stadium is exploding! This lil boy who saved two people during the sichuan earthquake is invited to walk alongside yao ming who, naturally, is the flag bearer. Random fact #1 : He's 226m (wtf 66cm taller than me) and plays for the Housten Rockets. Ah finally the whole walking in thing can end. Random fact #2 : 91,000 strong crowd, with 20,000 performers.

Random fact #3 : 204 nations competing in the Olympics. The commentator say one. haha.

Uhm, the olympic torch thing was like the coolest. The last person who got the flame was pulled into the air and he 'ran' one lap around the stadium walls. And with each step he took, the wall, which is actually a tv screen or smth, showed little vidoes of all the people who lit the olympic torch before.

And Random fact #4 : The olympic torch travelled some 137,000 km, mostly by air, over 130 days of international and chinese relay legs, including a leg to the summit of Mt Everest.
Huh, so cool.

And the fireworks were amazing. They kinda exploded in time to the music. Heres one picture i managed to get off the net. Haha, people are so efficient. The ceremony's not even over and they've already posted pics up ^^



Anyway,I'll edit with more pictures later. Cause i cant find any on the net yet. Still too early i think.

I dont know why i miss you so much,
I dont know why i still feel your touch.
You left me feeling high and dry,
With nothing but the question why.
You, I guess you have another direction,
Leaving me with nothing but a dead connection.
My love for you is deep and meaningless.
I was more than a fool, a fool for love, a fool for you.



(edit) I just realised today's 8th Aug. Which means the olympics starts today hahaha, yaaaay, im excited ^^ (/edit)

Random fact #1: this is my 300th post after 2 and a half years of blogging -__-
Random fact #2: I have a ton of ulcers at my lip. Damn these braces -___-

(The pictures are not really good cause i forgot to bring my camera so i had to use my phone. er yeh, so i had to like snap it real fast. hehehehe.)

Anywaaaaay, Ndp in school today. Good thing i sat at innovators and not entrepreneurs heh heh. Uhm, me and April, we sat in the front row so we had a good view. And innovators were in a good position so you can see all the parade stuff and the band,choir etc clearly.

The best part had to be the cheerleading/uniformed group drill thingy i think. The adventurers cheerleaders were awesome pls. Clar you were awesome too, but hahahah you cant even find the pom pom handle hahahaha so bimbotic ^^

Oh the fancy foot drill thing was the best. hehehe. The uniform groups have to like march/dance in time to music. Like for example Npcc (which, in my humble opinion,was the best among the others), marched to the song Low and omgxxxx so nice ^^ Ndcc was cool too hahaha. And their GOH uniforms are so nice. Made me wish i joined ncdcc instead..
(You weren't here tdy. I wonder why. Ah whatever lah k.)



And choir. This ove enthusiastic April kept making me stand up and dance. Oei, so embarassing okay ! Only the front row stand up lor -__- Oh and i think this photo's damn funny hahahaha. Cuz the uniformed groups had to run out and join the choir during the finale. SO FUNNY ! look at their feet ^^ Met clar, bel,kel,sel, and edward and headed to whitesands Kfc for breakfast and headed home after that.




Mmm. But i wish school could have lasted longer. I have nothing to do at home. Okay actually i have chinese and math homework to do but.... i dont feel like doing. heh heh.
kehzxx bye.

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"And so, the lion fell in love with the lamb."
"What a stupid lamb."
-Twilight, Edward & Bella.

Cause there's something in the way you look at me,
as if my heart knows you're the missing piece.

"Hmmm," Edward whispered against my skin. "You're quite adorable when
you're jealous. It's suprisingly enjoyable."
I scowled into the darkness.
"Its late", he said again,murmuring, almost crooning now,his voice
smoother than silk. " Sleep, my Bella. Dream happy dreams. You're the
only one who has ever touched my heart. It will always be yours. Sleep
my only love."

I closed my eyes and snuggled closer to his chest.
- Eclipse, Edward & Bella.

I knew you were behind/around me the whole time. But i have no guts to look/turn around heh heh.

CLARISSA YOU ARE GONNA WATCH IT WITH ME
AHHHH ZOMGXXXX EDWARD CULLEN I LOVE YOU ^^

Jacob's eyes strayed to the ocean. "Sam did love Leah. But when he saw Emily,
Leah didn't matter anymore. Sometimes...we dont exactly know why...we find our
mates that way." His eyes flashed back to me, his face reddening. " I mean...our
soul mates."

-Eclipse, Jacob & Bella.

People change so that you can learn to let go,
Things go wrong so you can appreciate them when they're right,
You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourselves,
And sometimes good things fall apart, so better things can fall together.

I did my braces today. I changed my rubber bands to purple.
Doc says my braces can come off in 1.5 years time instead of 2.5
My canines (sp?) hurt like crazy. I dont want to go to school...............

" I was thinking while i was running..."
"About not hitting the trees i hope."
"Silly Bella, running is second nature to me,
its not something i have to think about."
"Show off."
-Twilight,Bella & Edward.

Some things are just not meant to be,
no matter how much i wish they were.

I HAVE 80 CENTS NOW. HAHA IN YOUR FACE ^^
( Click to enlarge. And continue clicking on the uniquely
singapore thingy please thankewwww^^)



Anyway, i woke up real happy yesterday thinking it was Monday.
Then my mum said," Alyssa, we're leaving in half an hour's time !"
Im like huhhhh today's Monday what. So i checked the my phone's clock,
It said 9am. Oh. Its only Sunday. And whoop-dee-doo i had to go to church.

My mum got me the whole Twilight series on Saturday, as in Breaking Dawn also.
HAHA YAY. I was out with Clarissa Kel and Sel then she msged me telling me she
decided to buy the whole set cuz there was a three for two offer. Mmm. We watched
Money Not Enough cause Dark Knight and Mummy started too late and Clar had to
leave by 6+. Bumped into alot of upper sec Coralites on my way to whitesands. Ahem.

And today. At 745 am, i was hoping morning assembly would drag on longer cause
i havent handed up the edusave form, okay actually i dont know where i put it.
and i didnt want homeroom cause Ms lee would ask for it. We ended up dragging
all the way to 8.20am. Thank god for public canings and National Day rehearsals.
We're organizing ourselves to fast. Need to slow down so we can waste more lesson time^^
So today was pretty much a realxed day except core geog cause i totally forgot we had a presentation. Uh, yeh so i just read out from the screen hehehe.

Mhmm keh bye.

Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
Whats meant to be will always find a way.
(♥)

I dont understand why God would ever let us meet if he already
knew that there was no possible chance of us being together.

I had really really bad period cramps (what,you dont have cramps before meh.)
from geography to recess, to mid POA. So bad that i only wrote like 4 lines for my
30 mark geog test -___- And recess... sooo unbearable until i couldnt bring myself
to leave my seat. (and try and look for _ ) I had to like clutch my stomach and put my
head on the table. Oh, the pain i had to go through to ensure the continuity of the
human race.

Anyway, there was a small peep hole between my arm and the table. I saw a
pair of feet walk by. The way it walked, like kind of bouncing on the toes... so familiar.
Then i looked up and turned around and...HAHAHA. I bought cold milo but that
made my cramps worse. So i drank abit and gave the rest to renee. And i ended up
buying a sandwich. After school i asked clar to wait with me. And suddenly i remembered....SSSSSSSSSPPPPPAAAAA -___-
Okay forget it. so we went to whitesands in the end.

Mm. I hate fridays cause i cant go to school on saturday and sunday.


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YOU.

WILL.

NEVER.

KNOW.

HOW.

MUCH.

YOU.

MEAN.

TO.

ME.

YOU.

WILL.

NEVER.

KNOW.

YOU.

KEPT.

ME.

HANGING.

ON.

A.

STRING.

YOU.

WILL.

NEVER.

KNOW.

YOU.

MADE.

MY.

DAY.

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