Knowing that something will never happen,

doesnt make you want it any lesser.

chatted with clarissa,

and on second thought, i think i will have a private blog,

where only certain friends can read my most inimate stuff.

or maybe just a journal thing, but with the risk of my mum finding out.

of course, this blog will still be open lah. hahaha.

We had this rats carnival, which i initially thought

was rags carnival. Lol, i didnt hear properly -.-

quite fun lah i guess, although kinda pointless.

psh, dunno what im talking about.

kinda sorta depressed-ish lately,

and im not really sure why.

maybe its cause of the thing i told ccsm ?

But he doesnt even know me lah wth.

i dont wanna think so much,

yet im thinking so much.

and slooowly, i think im..................................

But he doesnt seem to give a damn sometimes,

with the exception of today where he kind of sort of made direct eyecontact ?

omgzxzxsxzxsxzxz i thought i was gonna faint lah !

in a good way. hahahaha.

oh well, there i go again, when i alr said i wont think so much.

ahhhhhwell.

im gonna play lemonade tycoon and drown my sorrows.

He walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?

And there he goes, so perfectly,

The kind of flawless I wish I could be

I can't even see anyone when he's with me
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star

And he's all that I need to fall into..